first middle and last name
Talan Eugene Morr, such a terrible name when I put it all out there.
birthdate and age
October 5, 1990, twenty-four going on twenty-five.
occupation
This is a little bit of a touchy subject for me right now. Up until a few weeks ago, I was in graduate school in New York but after some time to think and a slightly terrifying incident, I decided life is too short to waste away sitting in a classroom and I came back home. I managed to snag a job as a bartender but I'm still looking for something I can feel more secure in. I know there's no shame in my recent decisions, but as someone who used to have it all figured out I'm trying to find my place all over again. It's not as much fun as movies and tv make it look.
who does your family consist of? how many siblings do you have?
If you do the math there...are too many of us. My parents count as two but I have five siblings, myself makes six and so many cousins that thinking about it gives me a headache. It's great that I have such a big family because my short comings can kind of just slip between the cracks sometimes and there is always someone else who may have done something worse or will do something worse in a week or two. I'm not as close to all of them as I would like, but I love my family in the way you're supposed to and I really look up to every single one of them. It's hard to figure yourself out in such a huge group but I think they've all done really well or are doing really well for themselves, I'm pretty honored to share a last name with all of them.
what kind of pets do you have?
I don't have any pets right now I can't really take care of myself. When I was living in New York though, I took in this stray cat from the neighborhood. He was cute, I named him Chip because it was the only name that came to mind. I took care of him as much as I could but eventually he got away and I never saw him again. I like to think he found a forever home to take care of him. I am however, thinking about getting a cactus. I hear they're fun.
which hawthorn neighborhood do you live in?
I live in Wentworth Village. It's not too bad, I'm liking it. I just moved in a few months ago so it is still taking me a little bit of getting used to.
do you live alone?
I do not. I have a roommate who I barely see so sometimes I feel like I live alone. I am thinking about getting a hamster so I can hear some noise at night.
what is your idea of perfect happiness?
I used to be able to answer this without taking a second to stop and think, I used to have every single moment of my life figured out. Perfect happiness, graduating from NYU with a degree in Psychology, maybe go into teaching, or if that didn't work out I was thinking about being an EMT or just finding something to do in ways of helping others. I was always so focused on finding a career, marrying the woman I loved (at the time), and settling down with the cushy life. Now when I think about what perfect happiness is...well that picture I had framed in my mind it's gone. Now the frame is there but it's just the stock photo of some other guy living his own life and has nothing to do with me, i'm not even in it. My idea of perfect happiness, I guess I need to find that again. I'm still young though, most people don't have everything figured out before they're thirty so I'm not going to panic, I just need some time to find something that will make me happy, something I will happily follow through with. Perfect happiness to me right now is just the ending of a disney movie.
what is your relationship like with your parents? if you don't have one, explain.
It's average. They understand that I've been through a lot and they support me in every way. A few months back I was living in an apartment in New York and there was a fire. After surviving that I just sort of felt like I opened my eyes and realized that I was very unhappy in the life I had. I called my parents, expressed my concerns to them and confessed that I wanted to come home. I could tell they weren't happy, especially since I was in graduate school and they had spent so much money to get me there, but they understood and they did support my decision. I feel bad that they basically wasted so much money but I know that my happiness is important to them and once I really figure myself out and find out who I am and what I want to do, they'll be even happier. It's rough when you don't really know who you are but my parents love me and they are really happy that I even asked them for help, I don't think they were expecting that.
what does your ideal weekend or day off look like?
It pretty much just looks like any other day of the week for me, sitting around on the couch, watching tv or job hunting. I spend a lot of my free time trying really find something that will move me and make me actually want to get off my butt and spend my life doing. I search the web a lot, I try new things every week, I know I'm still young but right now I just really want to find my calling in life and I don't know how certain I am that I ever have or ever will find it. It's really important that I figure that out before I'm thirty.
what do you regret most about your time in high school?
I don't regret anything about high school. I had good friends, I got good grades, I had fun. I went to parties, I went on dates, I went to games and concerts, I don't know. I guess you're supposed to have one major regret but I really don't.
what word or words do you overuse the most?
I don't know...I think right now that is actually my answer. I overuse the phrase "I don't know" because I'm stuck in limbo, I'm in that point that I really just do not know what I am doing, where I am going, and what to say.
what fictional character do you most relate to and why?
Leonard Shelby from Memento. I don't have short term memory loss like him and I'm not hunting down the man who killed my wife and ruined my memory, but I understand what he was doing. He had everything (or so he thought) and in one moment, one incident it was all gone. His life was totally taken from him the day his wife died and he just lost himself. He went through the motions of living but he needed a purpose so every day he woke up with this idea that he had to find the man who killed his wife, every day he pieces together the notes he left himself yesterday and he solves the puzzle. Eventually he finds the man, he kills him...and then he burns all the clues and starts all over again. He does this because he just knows..if he stops...he's never going to have a purpose to get up tomorrow, so what's the point? That's who I relate to because every morning I wake up and hope today I can find a purpose to get out of bed.
how would you like to die?
In a heroic manner, if I have to go out I would like to go out knowing my last moment was saving someone or something. I want to be remembered for greatness, at least my final moment can be that.